2016. funny how it has been only almost five months into it but a lot of things already managed to happen. there were a lot of laughter, joy, happiness and new memories made. however, along with it, came heartbreaks, sadness, unfortunate incidents, mistakes (a lot of them), misunderstandings, fights, disappointments, tears and more. honestly, as much as i try to see the good stuffs more than the bad things, i still see the bad things more than i see the good stuffs. well, it's quite evident on how i described my good stuffs and the bad things. a lot more detailed in the latter, right? it's already really tiring and wearing me out to go through one by one problem, but on some days things just have to happen all at once. this happened lah, that happened lah, like can everyone just chill for a minute. i only got one body, one heart and one brain. if i could be there for everyone and every matter all at one time, i would. but guess what, i can't! and of course, that only means a lot of roller coaster of emotions as well. a minute i could be bawling, getting my heart broken over certain something and the next minute, i found myself laughing at the mirror for looking ridiculously ugly with bloody zombie eyes. one day, i would be crying and bawling my eyes out over a certain matter and the next day i would be over-eating at some sushi place trying to forget about darn things that keep happening. so thankfully, i just graduated foundation and that means i have almost four good months to renew myself and be a brand new me. i really want to be better than ever. physically, mentally and spiritually.  i'm so tired of letting things get to me and break me down every single time. it will be hard but it will be worth it. i have been craving for love and attention from others that i forgot i have myself to do that too. and so it's time! to love myself again.