i have a lover, a very romantic one.

He is the Most Gracious, Powerful, Loving and Caring, that exists in this whole Galaxy. 

no one can ever beat Him in that. He is just unbeatable, really.

He is in fact, the Almighty. basically, He's all that. He got all that He needs. 

He loves me, so much. more than anyone could ever love me. even more than my own parents.

when there's not even a bit of pretty in me, outside nor inside of me.

i have wronged Him in so many ways, i am not even that loyal, and i am too busy

with my own life, that i can only afford very little time to spend with Him.

Actually i can. indeed. i got full 24 hours to spend on, but i guess i was just being too stingy in spending time with Him.

However, despite how i lacked so much, He is still loving me and always being there for me.

it really breaks my heart every single time when i think of how terrible i am in our relationship.

but i still stay, cause i need Him. i need Him so bad that i can't live without Him.

He is the reason why i am alive, really. i am such a selfish person, aren't i?

it even breaks my heart more when i realized, that, He doesn't need me.

i mean, He's all that. He got it all, seriously, all that He needs. He doesn't even need me yet He stays beside me and keep on loving me and care for me.what makes Him stay, what makes Him loving me endlessly is not because,He needs me like how i need Him so bad, but because,

He wants me.

He doesn't need me, but He wants me. He wants to be the first one to hear me ; telling all my problems,
to be the number one in my heart, to be prioritized, to be the most important thing in my life.

what could be any more sadly romantic than this?

now shame on me.

that's all what He wants. He gave me countless gifts, gave me strength to live, and so much more and when He only wants that, i still couldn't do that. from now on, i should also put some effort in this relationship,
for this to work out,and last forever, till the last breath of mine.

now i am curious, how about you guys? and your relationship with Allah?  Allah doesn't need you guys but He wants you guys. We all need Him, but do we really want Him?