once, i advised someone, and that someone said to me, that that someone, claimed me, to be jealous. well yes, yes i am. i am jealous.

i am jealous how she is beautiful, pretty and smart.

i am jealous how she gets to have conversations with him.

i am jealous how she gets to crack jokes with him.

i am jealous how she gets advises from him.

i am jealous how she knows so much about him.

i am jealous how he spend time to text her, tweet her, etc.

i am jealous how he thinks about her all the time.

i am jealous how she can tweet unmention tweets with him.

i am jealous because i should be doing all that with him and not her.

but that's before dude. now, guess what?

i am not jealous how that beauty can attract men's eyes.

i am not jealous how that conversations can give them sins.

i am not jealous how that advises are just words.

i am not jealous how she and he waste their precious time.

i am not jealous how those unmention tweets can be a fitnah.

i am not jealous how those texts, direct messages, facebook messages, etc. 

would be shown to everyone in akhirah.

i am not jealous how they do all those things while knowing they shouldn't.

i am not jealous because if i do all those things that she always do with him now, 

i may end up in Jahannam.

so after reading all thess blabbering of mine, tell me again. am i ? am i really jealous?